Tomorrow is the 10th of december, A day I have grown to hate, but it keep's creeping up on me each year.
Tomorrow is the 3rd anniversary of my son's passing on, still it feel's like yesterday... I'm not good at opening up I never have been but good thing's come from blog's and forum's, freedom of speech, the thing's your into but most of all expressing yourself, it feel's good sometimes to type or write down what your thinking, I'll struggle to talk about him tomorrow so this feel's the world of good.
When I think about him it remind's me why I'm here, what I've lost, what I have now and give's me an appreciation of life, I would hope it give's many an appreciation of life and what they have.
I cherish the fact that I got to have him in my life and shared amazing amazing time's with him, he was as creative as me and he developed a love for music from me, I showed him the easy listening first, he loved the Beatles and would regularly sing the yellow submarine to me, when he passed on a part of me died, I know that and I think everyone who know's me know's that too, the saying time is a great healer is true though, it must be because I'm typing this now.
I have received massive support (and still do) for which I am eternally grateful.
I'm going to focus here on the good point's because to be able to have taken him to the place's I did and share the thing's we shared I consider myself very lucky, some people go through life without experiencing anything so for those 5 year's of love he gave me, the football matches, holidays, weekend breaks, sharing music together, him picking his own adidas and loving them (the little things do matter), well again I am eternally grateful.
He never cried, he never whinged, he was full of manner's, good time's, laughter, smile's and love, I only hope I get to keep 50% of his personality, he was cheeky, loveable, and a seriously amazing little boy who I cherish.
Grab hold all of those who you hold dear this christmas and make the most of them.
Let every second count.
Rest in peace mate.
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